[it's a good thing this is text. Hazel's already displayed an awful lot of vulnerability in this conversation, but her mental swaying upon receiving that answer is by far the worst. can she believe a statement like that? she wants to, very badly. Kaneda's put his ass on the line for people who objectively don't deserve it in the past...and he's called her a friend. she really wants to believe him.
but didn't he deserve something in return for that? it was hardly a reward, but surely there must be some worth in knowing what the ugly secret you were protecting was. Hazel's fear and guilt grapple with each other, fighting so hard she's pretty sure it'd spark a headache if she could still feel one.
she can at least give him a little understanding, some sort of morsel that allows Hazel a few more moments to think over whether she wants to spill the entire thing. that was fair.]
Sabriel ran me through because she can tell what I am and knew it wouldn't hurt me. I could've taken worse if I had to and it'd have still been the same.
[she doesn't want to think about it, but part of her hesitance lies in the fact that out of everyone in this group of acquaintances, she'd known Tetsuo first. in some way Hazel feels he deserves to know before anyone else - and she's not even close to ready to speak those words to him.]
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but didn't he deserve something in return for that? it was hardly a reward, but surely there must be some worth in knowing what the ugly secret you were protecting was. Hazel's fear and guilt grapple with each other, fighting so hard she's pretty sure it'd spark a headache if she could still feel one.
she can at least give him a little understanding, some sort of morsel that allows Hazel a few more moments to think over whether she wants to spill the entire thing. that was fair.]
Sabriel ran me through because she can tell what I am and knew it wouldn't hurt me. I could've taken worse if I had to and it'd have still been the same.
[she doesn't want to think about it, but part of her hesitance lies in the fact that out of everyone in this group of acquaintances, she'd known Tetsuo first. in some way Hazel feels he deserves to know before anyone else - and she's not even close to ready to speak those words to him.]