[His breath quickens slightly, the thoughts starting to swarm back. The Olympic Stadium, the concrete falling on him, the mutation, Akira...
Akira.
No, fight it back down Kaneda. You've got to keep it together, for everyone's sakes.
Just me.
His eyes dart to the floor behind the feed, silent only because he's debating with himself. He wanted to, he wanted someone to just understand what the hell he was going through. But Tetsuo would want to find out. He would do anything to get what he wanted out of someone.
He cared too much about Bull to risk it--he couldn't risk it.
That's what he told himself anyway, as his mild panic seems to die down, steeling himself again. Someone had to know, Kaneda. Someone other than Tadashi.]
I...
[He's not holding information captive because he wants to, far from it, and it shows in the sheer pain in his voice.
It's because he's the sole gatekeeper of a greater demon, and one he's not sure he can survive should he let it escape.]
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Akira.
No, fight it back down Kaneda. You've got to keep it together, for everyone's sakes.
Just me.
His eyes dart to the floor behind the feed, silent only because he's debating with himself. He wanted to, he wanted someone to just understand what the hell he was going through. But Tetsuo would want to find out. He would do anything to get what he wanted out of someone.
He cared too much about Bull to risk it--he couldn't risk it.
That's what he told himself anyway, as his mild panic seems to die down, steeling himself again. Someone had to know, Kaneda. Someone other than Tadashi.]
I...
[He's not holding information captive because he wants to, far from it, and it shows in the sheer pain in his voice.
It's because he's the sole gatekeeper of a greater demon, and one he's not sure he can survive should he let it escape.]
Not here. Not now.