[Desperate hope flares bright, but fades just as quickly. His face freezes as it hits him. What do either of them know about nanites? Tetsuo barely understands the 'small machines in your blood' bit, let alone how that lets them do anything;it's unlikely Kaneda knows more. Nanites are an unsolvable mystery as humiliating and frustrating as the brand on his wrist. Neither will ever go away. Both brand him forever as too many things he hates...
He shoves that wrist back against the wall. To mess with nanites, they'd need someone who could. And someone who could...
...
Tetsuo looks back down again, fighting down a growing uneasy feeling. Memories of another, plainer room. White sheets, white curtains, white-clad strangers with neither answers or compassion...]
Look...
I've been screwed up enough already. [It was hard to get worse than 'dying'... but he was certain they could find a way.] So you better not make it any worse...
[He doesn't really get back up for a while, milling questions around in his mind.
Eventually, he finds himself listing over to the side. His eyes definitely hurt by now from being awake too long. One arm shoots out to brace himself from falling over, then tenses to shove his body up to standing again. He takes as few shuffling steps towards the bed as possible, dropping face-first onto it.
Just far enough onto his side to narrowly miss hitting Kaneda.]
[Usually, Ken would have something smart to say. Some thoughtful word about how he'd pretend not to hear anything. Some joke to ignore that anything was said.
This time, he can't find the hear to make either comment, or even to keep talking. There was a halt, but it was one that derailed the whole train.]
... I guess it's hard to say there's anything that's ever truly good, or evil.
well talk about it tomorrow when we go check out the place
[But he hears the door open, wiping his hands off on a towel from cleaning the rice cooker. Freshly cooked rice sits in a bowl, salt and water set out for him to make rice balls as he hears the footsteps approach.
He wasn't sure what to expect from this talk, but if it were anything like the others...he's a bit surprised it's taking place in the kitchen and not at midnight.
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